Following the voice of God is always the clearest path, but it’s usually the most exhausting journey. It always seems that as you grow closer to God, His voice, and His direction, the more susceptible you become to Satan’s lies and snares. There have been many times lately where I can hear my self say, “I know this is of God but it sure seems to be spiritually, physically, and emotionally draining.” My clear purpose becomes cluttered with worries, fears, and doubts and it becomes an internal struggle to push them aside and to keep my path straight to the destination God so clearly told me to go.
My first New Year’s action is trusting the Lord in applying for a full-time ministry position with CRU (formerly known as Campus Crusade for Christ). Up until New Year’s Eve, I was pursuing an Internship position because it was a noncommittal one-year opportunity to test the waters of what being on staff with CRU would look like. At our winter conference Encounter, Roger Hershey spoke about yielding our rights and entitlements and truly trusting the Lord. I realized I felt entitled to blessings because I was choosing to commit one year of my life as an Intern. In reality I was fearful of trusting the Lord with my life. Through my experience doing a staff interview this week, and listening to God intently on the manner, I have decided to commit to full-time ministry with CRU.
While I know that this is the will of God, I know each day will come with more and more resistance, as my application and graduation date quickly approach. Thoughts fill my mind of “what about this, or what about that, or what if this happens, or what if this doesn’t happen.” Discouragement, fear, and lies consume my mind and I know it will be an every day battle to push them aside and to take that next step boldly in faith. I don’t know all the answers of how things will work or how things will turn out, I don’t know all the answers to my questions but I know who holds the answers and I know that His response is never a lie, never a trick, but always a promise of hope.
There is a battle for our minds, there are traps set for our feet, and there are lies being spoken that we must choose what to do with. Every opportunity to fear is an opportunity to trust. There is always a choice and there is always a response. My prayer is that my choice will always be quick and that my response will always be the same, “May the peace that passes all understanding guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.”
The journey is certainly exhausting but the purpose is clear and I will continue to take each day as it comes and choose to walk boldly in Christ.
My first New Year’s action is trusting the Lord in applying for a full-time ministry position with CRU (formerly known as Campus Crusade for Christ). Up until New Year’s Eve, I was pursuing an Internship position because it was a noncommittal one-year opportunity to test the waters of what being on staff with CRU would look like. At our winter conference Encounter, Roger Hershey spoke about yielding our rights and entitlements and truly trusting the Lord. I realized I felt entitled to blessings because I was choosing to commit one year of my life as an Intern. In reality I was fearful of trusting the Lord with my life. Through my experience doing a staff interview this week, and listening to God intently on the manner, I have decided to commit to full-time ministry with CRU.
While I know that this is the will of God, I know each day will come with more and more resistance, as my application and graduation date quickly approach. Thoughts fill my mind of “what about this, or what about that, or what if this happens, or what if this doesn’t happen.” Discouragement, fear, and lies consume my mind and I know it will be an every day battle to push them aside and to take that next step boldly in faith. I don’t know all the answers of how things will work or how things will turn out, I don’t know all the answers to my questions but I know who holds the answers and I know that His response is never a lie, never a trick, but always a promise of hope.
There is a battle for our minds, there are traps set for our feet, and there are lies being spoken that we must choose what to do with. Every opportunity to fear is an opportunity to trust. There is always a choice and there is always a response. My prayer is that my choice will always be quick and that my response will always be the same, “May the peace that passes all understanding guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.”
The journey is certainly exhausting but the purpose is clear and I will continue to take each day as it comes and choose to walk boldly in Christ.
I'm glad you went ahead and did your interview at Encounter! Funny how God knits things together :)
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